I got married 4 years before my best friend. I know it was hard for her losing me to my husband because she wanted the same thing. We continued our strong friendship and I always made sure she never felt like the third wheel and was still very involved in my life.
She got married a year and a half ago...and got pregnant at what seemed like the exact time she wanted to. She was so good to me during her pregnancy, having me be involved without being overbearing. I love her for that. I know its a thin line, but she handled it all so well.
She had her baby last Thursday. When I found out I sobbed and sobbed. I couldn't tell if I was sobbing because of I was so immensely jealous or if I was truly happy for her. I think it was a bit of both.
I went to see them on Saturday and just kept praying I could keep my cool while there. I did not want to cry while holding her baby. I didn't want to take away from their happiness. I met the little guy and he was so adorable and so precious and I just fell completely in love with him.
I'm not going to lie, on my drive home, I was jealous and thinking when is it my turn, but I am working on just being happy for my friend and her new little family and grateful to be apart of his life.